There's really nothing quite like getting to hear Yohan voice in person. He appreciates talking to him on the phone or video chatting with him, but nothing beats the non-digitized version. The real life, in person version. The version that allows him to feel Yohan's breath on his skin as he speaks, and allows him to hear the subtle shifts in his tone that simply don't come through on the phone. Best of all, it's the version that tells him that Yohan is here, right in front of him.
Once upon a time, Hayun had been prepared to go off on his own to college. He thought he would be fine with it. Off to start the next chapter of his life. He wasn't leaving anything behind but an empty home. And then he met Yohan and it became so much harder to leave. He had not only a man he deeply cared about but a whole household of people who meant the world to him. He never actually told Yohan how close he was to giving up the college of his choice just to go to school in Seoul so he could stay nearby.
At the end of every phone call, every good bye on video chat, each night when he has to stop texting, especially every time he has to let go of Yohan and allow him to go home, Hayun's heart breaks a little. And it doesn't get any easier. He thought it was supposed to get easier with time but it just gets so much harder. But he won't ask Yohan for more or longer phone calls and he won't ask him to visit more because he doesn't want to disrupt Yohan's entire life like that, nor does he want to risk falling behind on his schoolwork.
And though the infrequent visits are hard, it does make the times when he gets to see Yohan all the more special. Especially when it's entirely unexpected.
It actually feels surreal, having Yohan here and getting to be wrapped around the real, warm body of his boyfriend instead of the body pillow he sleeps with. He grew too accustomed to having Yohan next to him that he finds it difficult to sleep in a completely empty bed now. Not this time. Not tonight. Tonight he gets to sleep next to his amazing boyfriend.
When Yohan's lips touch his, Hayun practically puts his whole body into returning the kiss (even if it is just an affectionate gesture), going so far as even tightening his legs around Yohan's waist to pull himself closer. And when they part, he rests his forehead against the older man's.
"Mm I really missed that too." He's blushing. Please don't look at him. "How long are you here for? Please don't say it's just tonight."
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Once upon a time, Hayun had been prepared to go off on his own to college. He thought he would be fine with it. Off to start the next chapter of his life. He wasn't leaving anything behind but an empty home. And then he met Yohan and it became so much harder to leave. He had not only a man he deeply cared about but a whole household of people who meant the world to him. He never actually told Yohan how close he was to giving up the college of his choice just to go to school in Seoul so he could stay nearby.
At the end of every phone call, every good bye on video chat, each night when he has to stop texting, especially every time he has to let go of Yohan and allow him to go home, Hayun's heart breaks a little. And it doesn't get any easier. He thought it was supposed to get easier with time but it just gets so much harder. But he won't ask Yohan for more or longer phone calls and he won't ask him to visit more because he doesn't want to disrupt Yohan's entire life like that, nor does he want to risk falling behind on his schoolwork.
And though the infrequent visits are hard, it does make the times when he gets to see Yohan all the more special. Especially when it's entirely unexpected.
It actually feels surreal, having Yohan here and getting to be wrapped around the real, warm body of his boyfriend instead of the body pillow he sleeps with. He grew too accustomed to having Yohan next to him that he finds it difficult to sleep in a completely empty bed now. Not this time. Not tonight. Tonight he gets to sleep next to his amazing boyfriend.
When Yohan's lips touch his, Hayun practically puts his whole body into returning the kiss (even if it is just an affectionate gesture), going so far as even tightening his legs around Yohan's waist to pull himself closer. And when they part, he rests his forehead against the older man's.
"Mm I really missed that too." He's blushing. Please don't look at him. "How long are you here for? Please don't say it's just tonight."