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It's just lunch. It's nothing to get so worked up about. He doesn't need to feel so anxious. It's only lunch with the man who's made a permanent home for himself in Jay's thoughts. It isn't as though every lover he's had since Seung has been compared to him. It's not like he doesn't have to stop himself from telling other men that he's in the midst of sleeping with that it's not how Seung used to do it. That's not how Seung kissed him. That's not how Seung touched him. That's not how Seung felt when he-

It's just lunch. It's just lunch that he spent hours preparing for. It's just lunch that he arrived early for. And their planned weekend is just a weekend. A weekend of them getting together and probably doing what they do best together. A weekend planned before they've even had the lunch. The lunch that could go poorly. Even if it does? Jay still wants his weekend.

As Seung approaches, Jay is suddenly so glad that they didn't agree to meet outside and come in together or something. The distance allows him the time to get his feelings in order about just how good Seung looks. Now that the shock of their chance meeting in the campus cafe is gone, he can really admire the man. He can appreciate how incredible he looks. He can admit to himself that he is still so very attracted to this man.

"Haven't you figured it out yet?" Jay takes his seat again. He'd almost forgotten just how much he enjoys being near Seung. He enjoys the other's presence. Please, Seung, don't take that away from him. Don't fuck this up. "The whole point is to be distracting."

"Mission accomplished. I am well and fully distracted." As if to drive the point home, Seung rests his elbow on the table and then cups his chin in his hand, staring (no, mooning) at Jay.

"Have you been here long enough to look at the menu?"

"Good. I always liked being the centre of your attention." Jay smiles (a genuine smile. Not the forced friendly smile like when he first encountered Seung in the cafe and not his own brand of sassy smirk, but the genuine smile of someone pleased with his current company) and mimics Seung, resting his elbow on the table and cups his chin in his hand.

"Not really." Actually yes, but he just didn't. He was too preoccupied with staring at the time on his phone. "I've been told that the yakitori here is pretty decent though so I'll probably try that. The assorted sushi rolls look pretty good too." He nods toward a table near theirs. "A plate of it just went to the table behind you."

"We could do it family-style. A little of this, a little of that and share it all." He knows he doesn't need to explain what family style is to Jay. They've had it more than once while they were in Japan.

But he leaves the suggestion open for Jay to accept or reject. It's probably not a familiar trait. Seung is definitely a selfish person and letting someone else have control and make decisions isn't something he does naturally. It's a conscious effort he's making for Jay. Only for Jay. Because the best way to say he's sorry is to show he's changed.

It's not a familiar trait at all. In fact, it throws Jay off and leaves in perfect speechless for just long enough to be noticeable. When they were together ("together") in Japan, Jay often made suggestions, but Seung was usually the one making the decisions and otherwise being in control of the situation. He was so taken with Seung that he was fine doing whatever he wanted to do. Looking back on it now, he's not quite as fine with having allowed himself to be lead around like a puppy.

Jay sits back in his seat with his arms folded across his chest and looks off to the side as he ponders what it is they should do. Also to make it seem as though his stunned silence is merely part of him considering the suggestion. "Yeah, okay. Let's go family-style."

Allowed to make his own decision and he just ends up going with Seung's suggestion anyway.

Seung will give him the grace of playing his stunned silence off as in-depth thought over their meal options. It's easy enough to let that happen and it certainly doesn't hurt Seung to perpetuate that tiny, unspoken lie.

Once Jay announces his decision, Seung nods in agreement. He quickly picks up a menu to look over it for anything beyond the usually that might jump out. "Is there anything else you want to try? I'd like to get some soba, too, if you want."

Jay reaches over to pluck the menu from Seung's hand instead of grabbing the extra one that's on the table, then he sits back to casually peruse it. Or he tries to, at least. He can't help the way he keeps looking over the top of the menu at the man sitting across from him. It's always been particularly difficult for him to keep his eyes off of Seung. He's always been drawn to Seung but look at where and what that got him.

"No, I'm good. Soba's gonna be all you," he says as he neatly places his menu on top of the other. Unfortunately what he wouldn't mind having isn't on the menu. Which is probably for the best. It's been proven in the past to be pretty bad for him.

As if Seung's ever been bothered by people who like to stare at him. It hits different with Jay, though. It always has. Those little surreptitious glances over the menu make him feel like he's 13 sitting with his first crush. Maybe what Jay really wants can be on the menu.

No, no. Bad idea. Bad idea for them to fall back into old habits when Seung's trying to prove he can be different... despite having already penciled in a weekend together in which he plans to be out of bed very little. Seung really is so predictable. But they both have places to be today and Seung's hard and fast about his deadline for the day. Law school isn't the sort of thing you blow off no matter how good the ass is.

Seung waves the server over so they can order, yakitori, a variety of sushi they both choose, soba (that Seung pretends he won't share if Jay asks), and drinks. Once they're "alone" again, Seung lowers his eyes a moment, and exhales slowly.

"I told you that I wanted to apologize in person. I really do." But he also knows it's pointless. Words without action are meaningless. So, he can say sorry now and back it up by proving it to Jay however he can. He doesn't regret much in his your life, but he does regret how he treated Jay that day.

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because I'm surrently obsessed with soba

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