Even for Hayun, even very recently, he thought that awe might win him over in the end. He got so caught up in all the glitz and glamour of being in Yohan's orbit rather quickly. Getting to see how the rich live, getting to see a life he never could've imagined. It would've been so easy, but he's glad that he waited so he could see this Yohan. The one that's more than his money and power. Basing the future of his relationship with Yohan on that awe wouldn't have been fair to either of them.
This Yohan, though, this is the kind of person who Hayun could see himself developing a real relationship with. Real and deep and meaningful.
When Yohan tugs him closer, Hayun curls in against him. He presses his face to the man's chest and tucks his hands in between their bodies. This feels like everything that's been missing from his life. This feels like comfort. It feels like belonging. It feels like someone to help lighten the load of some of Hayun's worries, so he isn't crushed beneath them. Not someone to relieve him of his worries and burdens (he needs to take those on himself. He needs to deal with them himself. He can't put them on someone else. He needs to be responsible) but someone to talk to about them.
Is it really okay to put that all on one person? To put all of his eggs in one basket, so to speak? He shouldn't do it, but he wants to. Needs to. He can't keep doing all of this completely alone. Hayun nods against the man's chest and answers in a quiet, muffled voice. "I'll call you whenever I need you. Someone. I'll call you whenever I need someone."
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This Yohan, though, this is the kind of person who Hayun could see himself developing a real relationship with. Real and deep and meaningful.
When Yohan tugs him closer, Hayun curls in against him. He presses his face to the man's chest and tucks his hands in between their bodies. This feels like everything that's been missing from his life. This feels like comfort. It feels like belonging. It feels like someone to help lighten the load of some of Hayun's worries, so he isn't crushed beneath them. Not someone to relieve him of his worries and burdens (he needs to take those on himself. He needs to deal with them himself. He can't put them on someone else. He needs to be responsible) but someone to talk to about them.
Is it really okay to put that all on one person? To put all of his eggs in one basket, so to speak? He shouldn't do it, but he wants to. Needs to. He can't keep doing all of this completely alone. Hayun nods against the man's chest and answers in a quiet, muffled voice. "I'll call you whenever I need you. Someone. I'll call you whenever I need someone."