That soft kiss somehow manages to ease some of his nerves, even if only for the short length of the kiss, itself. It feels like a kiss from his naked boyfriend should feel the opposite way, but it's a bit of a comfort. There are no expectations behind it and it somehow feels apart from everything that just happened and what it's all leading up to, while also feeling connected to it. It's a nice feeling, getting to let all of his anxiety melt away for a short time. He imagines it'll be gone a little more permanently soon, when there are too many other feelings and there's no space left for nervousness and anxiety, but for now he'll take the temporary relief where he can get it.
And it really is only temporary, because soon he's being lead over to the bed and crawling into it and there's once more a flood of nervous energy. This is where it's going to happen. This is where he's going to have sex for the first time. Breathe.
Once they're both in bed, Hayun tugs the blanket back up and that once again helps to calm the nerves building up. Just like he hoped it would. It allows the familiar to actually feel familiar instead of it being entirely new territory with merely a sprinkling of sensations he's grown a little more accustomed to. Laying in bed with Yohan, with Yohan's hands on his bare chest (right now, it's easy enough to imagine Yohan's hands up his shirt, even though there's no shirt to speak of) and his tongue in his mouth. Familiar. A good way to ease him into the unfamiliar. Make no mistake, the nerves are still there, but they're not so all encompassing right now. They're giving him space to enjoy this.
Hayun reaches out to rest his hand on Yohan's bare chest, then curls his fingers against the warm skin as he presses back against the (welcome) intrusion in his mouth. The only thing that separates this from any other time they've made out is that Hayun would be pressed up against Yohan right about now. Currently, he's trying to keep a bit of space between his body and Yohan's. He's not sure he's ready for full contact yet.
no subject
And it really is only temporary, because soon he's being lead over to the bed and crawling into it and there's once more a flood of nervous energy. This is where it's going to happen. This is where he's going to have sex for the first time. Breathe.
Once they're both in bed, Hayun tugs the blanket back up and that once again helps to calm the nerves building up. Just like he hoped it would. It allows the familiar to actually feel familiar instead of it being entirely new territory with merely a sprinkling of sensations he's grown a little more accustomed to. Laying in bed with Yohan, with Yohan's hands on his bare chest (right now, it's easy enough to imagine Yohan's hands up his shirt, even though there's no shirt to speak of) and his tongue in his mouth. Familiar. A good way to ease him into the unfamiliar. Make no mistake, the nerves are still there, but they're not so all encompassing right now. They're giving him space to enjoy this.
Hayun reaches out to rest his hand on Yohan's bare chest, then curls his fingers against the warm skin as he presses back against the (welcome) intrusion in his mouth. The only thing that separates this from any other time they've made out is that Hayun would be pressed up against Yohan right about now. Currently, he's trying to keep a bit of space between his body and Yohan's. He's not sure he's ready for full contact yet.