It's supposed to be a good experience, something special to look back on fondly. This isn't supposed to be an experience that makes him worry about having sex again or not want it at all. This should be an experience that leaves him feeling like he'd like to be intimate with his boyfriend again, not wanting to close the door on it forever. He wants it to be as pleasant as it can be. He hopes that it is.

Looking at Yohan, Hayun wishes he could have even half that man's confidence. Standing there shamelessly (not that he has a single thing to be ashamed of, as far as Hayun can see) with no clothing on. Unlike Yohan, Hayun doesn't know what he looks like in others' eyes. Like, he doesn't exactly think he's unattractive, but he doesn't know if others think of him the same way. Except for Yohan, of course. Yohan has been very clear and open about what he thinks of Hayun's appearance. Yohan will probably do wonders for his confidence in the long run (if they even have a 'long run').

Hayun closes his eyes when Yohan steps closer and touches his hair. Deep breath. Calming breath. He's about to get undressed in front of Yohan, by Yohan. Calm. He needs to be calm. He tips his head against Yohan's fingers then opens his eyes to look up at him. He chews on his bottom lip for just a second then exhales (a slow, shaky breath), lifting his hands up into the air.