It's just lunch. It's nothing to get so worked up about. He doesn't need to feel so anxious. It's only lunch with the man who's made a permanent home for himself in Jay's thoughts. It isn't as though every lover he's had since Seung has been compared to him. It's not like he doesn't have to stop himself from telling other men that he's in the midst of sleeping with that it's not how Seung used to do it. That's not how Seung kissed him. That's not how Seung touched him. That's not how Seung felt when he-
It's just lunch. It's just lunch that he spent hours preparing for. It's just lunch that he arrived early for. And their planned weekend is just a weekend. A weekend of them getting together and probably doing what they do best together. A weekend planned before they've even had the lunch. The lunch that could go poorly. Even if it does? Jay still wants his weekend.
As Seung approaches, Jay is suddenly so glad that they didn't agree to meet outside and come in together or something. The distance allows him the time to get his feelings in order about just how good Seung looks. Now that the shock of their chance meeting in the campus cafe is gone, he can really admire the man. He can appreciate how incredible he looks. He can admit to himself that he is still so very attracted to this man.
"Haven't you figured it out yet?" Jay takes his seat again. He'd almost forgotten just how much he enjoys being near Seung. He enjoys the other's presence. Please, Seung, don't take that away from him. Don't fuck this up. "The whole point is to be distracting."
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It's just lunch. It's just lunch that he spent hours preparing for. It's just lunch that he arrived early for. And their planned weekend is just a weekend. A weekend of them getting together and probably doing what they do best together. A weekend planned before they've even had the lunch. The lunch that could go poorly. Even if it does? Jay still wants his weekend.
As Seung approaches, Jay is suddenly so glad that they didn't agree to meet outside and come in together or something. The distance allows him the time to get his feelings in order about just how good Seung looks. Now that the shock of their chance meeting in the campus cafe is gone, he can really admire the man. He can appreciate how incredible he looks. He can admit to himself that he is still so very attracted to this man.
"Haven't you figured it out yet?" Jay takes his seat again. He'd almost forgotten just how much he enjoys being near Seung. He enjoys the other's presence. Please, Seung, don't take that away from him. Don't fuck this up. "The whole point is to be distracting."