Knowing that Yohan is far more experienced than him doesn't help his nerves, yet it also does. A more experienced partner to help guide him when he doesn't know what to do, to give him some direction when he feels like he's freezing up. It's hard to imagine fumbling around with someone who has as little experience as him. And yet there's something to be said about fumbling around together. Feeling out a new experience alongside someone else. No one to compare each other to. With Yohan, Hayun can't help but wonder how he measures up to other partners. The experienced ones, he knows it's silly to compare himself to. He's not there yet. And yet he does it anyway. But what about Yohan's other inexperienced partners? Were they as shy and nervous as Hayun is? Did they need their hand held through the entire process like Hayun seems to? So having a more experienced partner to share this experience with is incredibly helpful and it does make him feel calmer knowing that he's with someone who knows what he's doing, but it also makes him incredibly nervous.
"I didn't mean to pull my hand away," he explains softly. He's never really even touched himself, so jumping straight to touching someone else is... different. And out on the couch, there was cloth under his hand, and Yohan's hand over it. This is different. This is skin on skin. This is Hayun venturing out on his own, so to speak. He once more runs a hand over Yohan's torso, this time tracing each line he finds much more thoroughly. Bones and muscle. Runs his fingers along first one set of ribs, then the other. Fingertips experimentally circling around nipples. Though it's all still very timid, he pushes through. He stops once in a while to gather up his courage again, but in the end, he pushes through. He's focused. He's nervous as hell, but he's focused.
See because if he focuses hard enough on the hand getting to know Yohan's torso, maybe he'll be a little less focused on what his other hand is doing. Maybe his won't freak out again when he touches Yohan's dick. He'll be a little less laser focused on the way it feels under his fingertips or how warm it is against his palm. Though he doesn't yet venture as far as wrapping his fingers around it, Hayun does give Yohan's dick an exploratory stroke with his open hand before pulling it away again. He hand goes still on Yohan's chest and Hayun exhales like he was holding his breath.
"What, um, what comes after?" After Hayun gets to know Yohan's body. After he gets a little more comfortable touching the man he just started a proper relationship with.
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"I didn't mean to pull my hand away," he explains softly. He's never really even touched himself, so jumping straight to touching someone else is... different. And out on the couch, there was cloth under his hand, and Yohan's hand over it. This is different. This is skin on skin. This is Hayun venturing out on his own, so to speak. He once more runs a hand over Yohan's torso, this time tracing each line he finds much more thoroughly. Bones and muscle. Runs his fingers along first one set of ribs, then the other. Fingertips experimentally circling around nipples. Though it's all still very timid, he pushes through. He stops once in a while to gather up his courage again, but in the end, he pushes through. He's focused. He's nervous as hell, but he's focused.
See because if he focuses hard enough on the hand getting to know Yohan's torso, maybe he'll be a little less focused on what his other hand is doing. Maybe his won't freak out again when he touches Yohan's dick. He'll be a little less laser focused on the way it feels under his fingertips or how warm it is against his palm. Though he doesn't yet venture as far as wrapping his fingers around it, Hayun does give Yohan's dick an exploratory stroke with his open hand before pulling it away again. He hand goes still on Yohan's chest and Hayun exhales like he was holding his breath.
"What, um, what comes after?" After Hayun gets to know Yohan's body. After he gets a little more comfortable touching the man he just started a proper relationship with.