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[personal profile] blasfemie 2024-09-15 09:15 pm (UTC)(link)
Ruvin's response makes Subin stop dead in his tracks until he's tugged along by the vampire, causing him to stumble and almost fall back to his knees. Instinctively, he reaches out to catch himself, grabbing hold of Ruvin's arm with his free hand, though he quickly releases it the moment he realizes what he's done. There's so much worse than death. For Subin, death has always been the scariest thing he could imagine. Being human means that death is the end. There is nothing else after that. No more chances. Death doesn't care about the people you care about or goals you didn't meet. The idea of just one day being gone terrifies him.

But there's so much worse. There's much worse fates than dying. "I just... I don't want to die." But he doesn't want to live with Ruvin either.
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[personal profile] blasfemie 2024-09-17 08:11 am (UTC)(link)
Ruvin isn't wrong. It's a fate that every human shares. None can escape death, but they do hope that it can be put off for as long as possible. Most humans hope to live until they're old and grey. They don't necessarily expect to with vampires always looming (just because vampires aren't permitted to feed directly from humans, doesn't mean they don't. Humans aren't exactly a protected species) but they hope to.

Subin hoped that he would be among those who went largely unnoticed by the vampires who don't care for society's rules. There are much better candidates out there for a vampire's next meal so Subin never thought he'd catch anyone's eye. And yet here he is, falling victim to 'expectations' instead of 'hopes'.

"...you're right..." If he knew this was to be his last night, he would've done things differently. He would've made sure to speak to his family or invite them to his performance. Hell, he would've told them that he was performing tonight. He'd like to think he would've simply skipped the performance entirely but this is fate, right?

"Will you at least make it quick?" He's sure he knows the answer to that question, though.
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[personal profile] blasfemie 2024-09-22 04:22 am (UTC)(link)
It will not be quick. Subin doesn't even get a swift death for his troubles, and he's not sure he's brave enough to take matters into his own hands. He's not sure that he can do what maybe he should when Ruvin gets to be too much to handle. Though who knows whether or not his new situation will force that to change.

Subin says nothing for the rest of the walk. The only sounds coming from him are quiet sobs and the scuffing of his shoes as he drags his feet along the ground. He stares over his shoulder, watching everything he ever knew drop away as Ruvin leads him along by the wrist. He can no longer see the lights from the venue where he'll never play again, or hear the applause from the crowd. Back there is the home he'll never see again and the family who may as well forget about him, the few friends that he's made over the years and his acquaintances. Musical rivals who lack competition now that Subin's out of the picture.

Not only does the world he knew seem to disappear but most of civilization does as well. It's only one the world grows darker that Subin turns to face forward, to see where it is they are and where they're going. Out of the city. Away from everything he ever knew. Away from everyone who ever knew him. This is the sort of place where no one would ever think to look for him.

By the time they reach the large stone fence with the iron gate, Subin is no longer sobbing. He's run out of tears. His eyes are bloodshot and dry. His face is puffy and his cheeks are all splotchy. But he's not crying anymore, though there are quiet sniffles and the occasional hiccup.

"I'm home," he says softly, miserably.