Ruvin's response makes Subin stop dead in his tracks until he's tugged along by the vampire, causing him to stumble and almost fall back to his knees. Instinctively, he reaches out to catch himself, grabbing hold of Ruvin's arm with his free hand, though he quickly releases it the moment he realizes what he's done. There's so much worse than death. For Subin, death has always been the scariest thing he could imagine. Being human means that death is the end. There is nothing else after that. No more chances. Death doesn't care about the people you care about or goals you didn't meet. The idea of just one day being gone terrifies him.

But there's so much worse. There's much worse fates than dying. "I just... I don't want to die." But he doesn't want to live with Ruvin either.