❝ Snowflakes swirl down gently ❞

[no1likeme]

{ in the deep blue haze beyond the window }
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November/December/January holiday post. Here are some ideas:

• snow: first snow of the season/ever, making snowpeople, forts, or snow angels, snowball fights, snowed in
• warm: hot drinks, warm blankets, crackling fires, busting out the winter coats and socks, baking in a cozy kitchen
• holidays: decorating, picking out a tree, preparing the big holiday meal, exchanging gifts
• activities: shopping, cooking, sledding, ice skating, cuddling with someone special
• new year: par-tay!, toast, countdown, midnight kiss

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[detricote]

"I'm sorry, Yohan." That he made it seem like a bigger deal than it actually is (to be fair, it's a big deal to him). But the idea of Yohan leaving again so soon, even if it's just to go to the market, even if it's just for a few minutes, made his heart sink. There are so many lovely people here who he cares about and who care about him, but he can still get lonely in the absence of one person specifically. It'll get less intense as their vacation goes on, but being so fresh off of a period of not getting to see Yohan, it's still hard to ignore.

Hayun tips his head up to look at Yohan, resting his chin on the man's chest. "I'm sorry. I kind of started our vacation off on a weird foot, didn't I? It was a really kind gesture, offering to run out and get anything we might need so I could spend time with Baba, but I missed you and I'm not ready for you to disappear again so soon."

[bulnoriya]

"Hey." Yohan shifts, moving to take Hayun's face in his hands so the boy will look at him. "Don't apologize for articulating your needs. That's not ever something to apologize for. You have to look out for yourself as if no one else will. Got it?"

Before giving Hayun a chance to respond, he leans in and presses a soft kiss to his forehead. "I'm sure Baba can find someone to get anything she needs."

[detricote]

Look out for himself as if no one else will. That's a concept he's grown very familiar with over the years. Look out for himself as if no one else would, because there was no one else to look out for him. There was only Hayun. Looking out for himself was the only option. Even after Yohan started to become a bigger part of his life, even after they became a couple, Hayun continued to look out for himself like no one else would. He never wanted to rely too heavily on Yohan just in case something happened and the older man disappeared from his life. Hope for the best, prepare for the worst. He has Yohan and all of Yohan's people to look out for him now, but he still has to look out for himself too. Advocate for himself because he's the only one who's guaranteed to always be there.

"I got it," he says softly, closing his eyes briefly when Yohan's lips touch his forehead. Such a soft and simple gesture that makes him feel so warm and loved. "I'm still sorry though. I could've just told you what was wrong without making things weird."

Exhaling slowly, Hayun tips his head a bit to one side, leaning a little more into one of the hands on his face and smiling up at Yohan. "Thank you for all of this, by the way. For this trip and... everything." It's important to him that Yohan knows that he's so happy and so grateful for all of this despite the one small hiccup. "This was always a dream destination of mine. I didn't think I'd ever actually get to come here though." He didn't even think he'd ever leave Seoul, truthfully.

Hayun turns his head to the side, kissing the palm of one of Yohan's hands. "Thank you, too, for bringing everyone here. I really missed everyone."

[bulnoriya]

He listens to Hayun, drinking in his face and all its expressions as he speaks. Has there ever been someone so very good in his life? If there ever was, he doesn't remember. Oh, there've been plenty of naïve, innocent boys before Hayun. Naïve and innocent until Yohan stripped that from them piece by piece, opening their eyes to the ugliness, the brutality of the world (whether that was his intent or not). But Hayun's just so... good. Decent, caring, tenacious, strong, persevering. A survivor who hasn't been jaded by everything trying to harden him.

"I feel confident in speaking for everyone else: we missed you to." But Yohan most of all. How could any of them miss Hayun like he does when none of them know Hayun the way he does?

[detricote]

If Hayun was going to live through his circumstances, it was going to be as himself. He was determined to keep them from changing him. He wanted to live as the good person he feels he was always meant to be, not the jaded, cynical person that life was trying so hard to turn him into. His family wouldn't have wanted their deaths to change him, and he doesn't want that either.

"I'm really enjoying college but I hate being away from you all. I hate being away from you." He really does enjoy college. Living away from home is hard but having some familiar faces in the form of his bodyguards makes it a little easier. College allowed him to meet Vincent. College is teaching him so many fascinating things. College is exposing him to an entirely new culture. There are a lot of downsides too though. Downsides that won't really feel like they're corrected until Hayun is home for the summer. Or until college is done and he's home permanently.

"Yohan, I have a question." He chews on his bottom lip as he looks up at Yohan. "Why haven't you kissed me yet?" And not just his head or his forehead!

[bulnoriya]

He breathes out a subtle laugh at the question. There's no need to think about the answer. He gently combs his fingers through Hayun's hair and sighs again.

"I haven't kissed you yet because I can't trust myself to stop at just a kiss."

[detricote]

Hayun closes his eyes and breathes deeply, tipping his head back a little to follow Yohan's hand. He remains that way a little longer before slowly opening his eyes. It's difficult to keep himself from looking away almost immediately though when Yohan says the sorts of things he does. One would think Hayun would be used to it by now, and one would be right, but also wrong. He expects it, yet it still catches him by surprise.

"I'll make sure it stops at just a kiss." He presses his lips together and gives his head a small shake. "Or I won't."

[bulnoriya]

Ah, Hayun's breathtaking. Everything about him from his beautiful features to his pastel hair to his sweet but sassy disposition. Yohan runs his fingers once more through the boy's hair, this time leaning in when Hayun tips his head back.

Just a kiss for now Hayun has to get unpacked and socialize with the others. Yohan will have him all to himself after.

So, for now, the kiss is slow and gentle. A warm hello after time apart. A tender re-acquaintance with the familiar terrain of Hayun's mouth. Yohan even breaks away before either of them have a chance to get too breathless (clap for him!).