More than even Hayun may recognize. He knows that it does take a certain amount of personal strength to keep up with what he's doing, but he also doesn't want to give himself that much credit when he can see all of his own personal failings too. He is painfully aware of every weak moment he's ever had, including here tonight, when he had to call Yohan. He shouldn't assign them more importance than all the strength he's exhibited since the passing of his grandparents (and even before, truthfully) but it's difficult not to. It's difficult to keep from focusing on the weak moments.

If nothing else, though, those weak moments make him want to work harder. Even those weak moments that he sees everywhere don't make him resentful or bitter. They just make him more determined.

"It's kind of silly sounding but do you think it would be okay if I still texted you when you're busy? It's not like I'd expect you to text back or anything." Someone to talk at, so he can get some thoughts out if he's having an especially bad day (he hasn't even considered the idea of Yohan sending Siwoo in his place). "Or would that be too bothersome?"